The Beginning

There are moments when time seems to cease. A single second can pass where time stops, eternal in the grains of sand, as the world passes. Moments that can steal your breath away, moments where one’s heart can skip a beat. Maybe the heart never resumes its ever constant beating; it never recapitulates the perpetual degeneration of the human form. It is a single second where life is either eternal or ending. An instant of abrupt demise, or is it the beginning of existence? It either means everything or nothing. It is a moment of absolute perfection or the plunge into the torment. It is either a curse of great illustrations magnitude or an endowment of immense proportions. It is a moment that repeats in one’s head over a thousand times over, and after the continuance, one cannot circumscribe these dreams from reality. These are the illusions that haunt one’s subconscious, a serene and tormenting trail of memories that were forgotten, lost…

“I’ve seen these haunting images echo over and over again. These shadowed figures embracing my dreams and unconsciousness.”

[Drawings]

~I am pondering on creating a small series of posts in relation to real characters in my life.~

Memory Boulevard

I just took a trip down memory lane.
And tripped........

I realize that to many of the last classmates of mine in high school and elementary school, I am but dead.
But I just recounted some memories that I have from those days.
And the sudden death of my elementary school principal, "My Favorite Principal" help to spur memories.

http://www.ursuline.com/Students/Student_Life/newspapers/newspaper_may.pdf

An old Urusline High School Newspaper.
And I illustrated any of the drawings in it. Especially the comic at the end.

It feels so long ago. Such an intangible time it seems.
Like it was a long forgotten dream.

Pathetic

It's sad.



It's all pointless. School. Finances. Work. Drugs. Drama.


What does it all add up to? Paying for school to get a good job to nothing more with your life.
Drugs to relieve oneself of the realization of the emptyness of existance.
Drama to add something negativley interesting to the boring life.
What is the point to life.
People have dwelt upon lifetimes pondering the mysterious question.

The Interview: A.F.I. Decemberunderground.
"Forever waiting for disaster,
What David calls servant and master,
Will you play it too?
As this displacement begs for water.
Swimming, bathing.
Drowning in sorrow.

Scream with me.

I crawl across this cracked expansion,
I'll be buried soon.
Beneath the sand with pure intentions.
Wanting something, someone to follow.

For a change, I'll refrain,
From hiding all of me from you.
Here's my lullaby.
Pray for rain, lose your name.
And watch all your dreams fall through.
Hush now, don't you cry.

I swoon upon my knees come crashing,
Will you bury me?
Today, this small favour I am asking
Hold me, you may drop me tomorrow

Calm down.
Come down cold resides with me.
With me.



I flee to,
I flee to decemberunderground.
As you exhale, I breathe in and sink into,
The water underground,
And I grow pale without you."

Thought Processes

A Skylit Drive: A City on the Edge of Forever.

"See the stars from a million places
Porcelain skin puts our faces entwined in time
Never lost my way for you
Felt it all around me
Never gonna stop
Never stop anything at all
Repeat all that we do
Let's start from the beginning

The times we've lost can be repaired
So be prepared
The moments we burned into our minds
Yeah we'll be fine

We say our goodbyes
Let's bring it tonight
The story's building as we live on through this night
Representation to approve the words we bind
The city never pulls through once we all are doomed
Never gonna stop
Never stop anything at all
Remember what we do
Re-live the lives we put in the sky"

Beautiful lyrics.
And I highlighted the parts that fit and describe my story.
They fit perfectly into the puzzle.

Alice. *
Adrian Hanover. *
Evander Lucian. *
Professor Lydon. *
Isadora. *
Arabella.
Easton.
Frederick, Prince of Wales and Augusta from the House of Hanover.
Charlotte of Mecklinburg-Strelitz.

All components into the world that is swirling in my head.
Maybe all that we write is what we see. Or wish to see?

Of Dreams and nightmares

Alice, she stood up, finally noticed her surrounds, and then something happened.

A summer breeze blew through her purple hair, and the trees wavered.
It was as time seemed to stop, and resume again.
A glimmer of what once was opened through her memory and she could only try and make it all seem more surreal then it already was.
Time seemed to stand completely still.
Even the summer breeze seemed to cease.

Alice realized that she was here before.
Like a long lost lifetime that was forgotten.
Of a time where she felt happy and carefree in her existence.

Tears began to dwell up into her eyes.
"I know this place," Alice told him.

He was standing right next to her, completely devoted to her.

"I was here before, many years ago," Alice paused, "I can't believe that I forgot this place."

Alice stood there, nearly tranfixed into her lost memories revived, her eyes filled with distance traveling into her wandering thoughts and with tears.

"I......I forgot about him," she wispered, while collapsing onto the earth, "How can I forgive myself and how can he forgive me?"

The boy sat next to her and held her hand.
"It's not your fault, you couldn't help it, what's done is done," he gently told her and kissed her hand.

She looked into his eyes and said nearly crying, "But, b-but, he's gone now, and there's nothing that I can to save him."

The boy followed her eyes onto a grassy, overgrown cemetary. All the tombstones were tilted to angles of all sorts. It looked as though it has been disregarded for a hundred years.

Alice rose to her feet slowly entranced by the horror to what she may find as she walked towards a certain tombstone. The boy quickly got up to follow her like she was a sleepwalking child.

She stopped right before an old flat tombstone, that was leaning to one side. Alice bent down and started peeling away from the front letters that were impossible to read from.

"No," she gasped and tears began rolling down her face.

The boy embraced her as she wept for her dear friend.